One of the most wonderful, challenging, and rewarding experiences of life.
I was not prepared for the joys my sons would bring me. However, there were many experiences that were difficult for me, and I was not prepared for those either. And each stage of development brings a new degree of separation.
I've had a hard time letting them go.
I have not dealt well with my feelings. I know that I am holding on too tightly, and that this has become a spiritual battle for me.
God, I know You have something to say to me.
He led me to the word – abandon.
There are many definitions of the word abandon that include negative ideas of desertion. But there are other connotations that totally capture the idea of what God wants me to understand.
To enthusiastically, exuberantly give up the control of another – to give oneself over unrestrainedly.
Here at last is the message God has for me.
He is seeking the attitude behind the action.
My unwillingness to give up my sons is motivated by fear. I am afraid something will happen to them.
Bad influences, terrible mistakes, painful experiences, heartache, illness, even death lurks out there in the real world.
How can I relinquish or surrender my sons to those things?
But God, in His loving kindness, opened my mind to a wonderful truth.
God is not asking me to let go of my sons to the world. What He wants is for me to release them into His care, to be watched over by His hand, to be let loose to accomplish His purposes in their lives.
He does not want me to fear the world, but to trust Him.
He wants me to trust His perfect love for my sons – the love that died on a cross for them – the love that rose again to give them eternal life.
He wants me to abandon them to Him with joy.
The Creator of Life, and the Giver of Eternal Life will watch over my sons with infinite more care than I am capable of doing.
This is the attitude He is seeking.
Total abandonment with no restraint or fear – abandonment with enthusiasm and exuberance with joy.
Peace that passes human understanding from the Author of all blessings.
Lord, help me do this – completely.
Let me be like Hannah, the mother of Samuel, and Jochebed, the mother of Moses. Both released their sons to uncertain futures, but rested blessedly assured as to WHO held that future.
And look what God accomplished!
Oh Lord, make me able to pray, "Therefore I have given him to the Lord; as long as he lives he is given to the Lord."
Do you have trouble letting go of your children?
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