Today I am NOT resting.
I am fretting, worrying, stewing, ruminating, obsessing, thinking incessantly about a particular problem that has bothered me for quite a while now.
Why is it that there are some situations that are easy to hand over to the Lord? And there are some that are nearly impossible??
This particular situation is one that I feel partially responsible for – I suppose that’s one reason why it’s hard to let go. And this situation causes pain for people I care about – that’s another reason I can’t let go.
It’s one of those situations I want to FIX!
Here, let me get out my little toolbox – I’d just love to use my trusty hammer to pound some sense into people. Maybe I could wrench some reactions here and there to make things better. I’ve got some pliers to twist around some emotions. Oh, I’m sure I could screw up everything if I tried hard enough.
And don’t even get me started with my Sawzall!
Feeling impotent – out of control – useless. Not feeling good.
Where are you, Lord? Where ARE You?? Where are YOU???
I am NOT resting today.
You know, there was this other guy, a long time ago, that I think really understood what I’m talking about.
He was hiding in a cave at the time.
Here’s what he had to say:
“Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy!
I look to You for protection.
I will hide beneath the shadow of Your wings
until the danger passes by.
I cry out to the Most High,
to God who will fulfill His purpose for me.
He will send help from heaven to rescue me…
My God will send forth His unfailing love and faithfulness.”
Did you recognize the voice of David?
Cowering, surrounded, troubled?
Feeling powerless against his circumstances?
I am moved by the image of hiding in the shadow of God’s wings.
One of the most beautiful sights I have ever seen was an eagle gliding over snow-dappled mountains, high in the mountains of Colorado. I was well above sea level – probably at about 10,000 feet – and yet, this eagle soared.
He was strong, majestic, powerful.
Those are the wings I want to hide under.
The wings that understand the shifting air currents of life. The wings that fly where there is hardly enough oxygen to breathe. The wings that glide above a cold and forbidding landscape.
The wings that soar.
I want to learn the lesson of resting in the shadow of His wings.
A place of refuge and safety. A place where calamity can blow like crazy around me - but all I feel is the warmth of His wings, where I am stilled by His heartbeat, and all I hear is His breathing - steady and sure and reassuring.
OK, Lord – maybe today I’m not resting too well – but I can hide.
And I will.
I will tuck myself into You. Lean into Your strength. Trust Your power and goodness. Listen to Your heartbeat – its steady, strong beat. I will synch my breathing with Your own.
I will be reassured by the confidence I have in Your love and faithfulness.
“Clink, clink, clink…”
Oh, don’t mind that noise – I’m just putting away my toolbox.
There’s an Eagle waiting for me.
“He will cover you with His feathers.
He will shelter you with His wings.
His faithful promises are your armor and protection.
Do not be afraid…” (Psalm 91:4-5)
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