It’s not a pretty sight.
For many years, I suffered from the “hoarding” disease. I wasn’t quite as bad as the people on the television show, but things were highly messy, very disorganized, and extremely cluttered.
It’s really kinda ironic – I have a mind full of steel filing cabinets.
Everything gets ordered just perfectly because there is a place for everything. Emotions go over here, after being analyzed and sorted. Thoughts here, problems there – divided up into solved ones and ones to be solved. Got more than one filing cabinet for worries. It might be overflowing a bit, but it’s organized. Yup, I know just where to put things in my mind – my interior life runs like a top.
My exterior environment?
For all those years in my 40’s?
Not so much.
I could make a bunch of excuses for how things got out of hand. Anxiety problems, a history of “pack rat” tendencies, feeling emotionally overwhelmed, needing to fight off boredom, a nagging sense of loneliness, depression – but in the end, those were all just excuses.
The real problem was trying to fill up a hole in my life.
An aching emptiness.
And the rather desperate attempts I made on my own just led to…dysfunction.
We all have something, don’t we? (DON’T WE?!) We all have something we’ve done or we do to try to stave off that nagging sense of loneliness or despair. Things we do to fill up the hole in our lives.
We all have areas where we are dysfunctional.
You know why?
Because we’re all broken…
We don’t work like we’re supposed to work. Our original design got messed up. The blueprints were perfect, the Architect was a Master – we just thought we knew how to make a better building.
Am I still a hoarder?
No – and I have to give some credit to “The Hub” – he’s a neatnik. And he rescued me from myself in many ways.
But even though he helped me clean up my house, even though he helped me put things in order, even though he loves me –
He couldn’t fix the basic problem – he couldn’t fill up the empty hole.
Because it was God-shaped.
We are made in God’s image.
Yes, we are. And because of that, nothing can fill us up like the God who created us. He is the ONLY One who can make us whole again.
He can remove dysfunction – and restore “His-function.”
He’s still got the original blueprint. He knows what we’re supposed to look like. He can make a better building…
It might not get finished in this life – but oh boy! What a glorious piece of handiwork we will be in eternity!
Are you tired of spiritual dysfunction?
Are you weary of trying to fill up that hole on your own?
Are you ready for some “His-function” in your life?
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