Hopefully, that title didn't scare you off…(tell me you're smiling just a little bit!!)
I was talking the other day with a friend – about all the trials that have hit my family in the last few months. I talked about how exhausted I am. How much my emotions and body are in turmoil. How I don't understand anything that's been going on – or why it won't just stop for a while so I can catch my breath…
And, after ranting and raving – (I like to call it sharing) – I spoke about the Lord.
About how He has somehow brought me peace.
Scary peace, yes…
But peace nonetheless.
So what do I mean by scary peace?
Well, have you ever had those times when you feel so nervous and anxious you think you're going to literally crawl out of your skin? Those times when you know you're on the "Worry Train" but you just can't seem to slow it down enough to jump off?
Times when you're not only listening to the enemy’s lies, you've downright bought a subscription to them?
Times when you're in the middle of a torrential rain, pounding thunder and crackling lightning, a raging storm with high-pitched waves – and Jesus is asleep in the back of the boat?
Yes, I'm sure you have.
That's how I've been feeling lately.
…somehow I also feel different. Overwhelmed, yes, but not overcome. Distraught, sure, but not destroyed. Frantic, oh boy, but not faithless.
Underneath it all, I feel a peace that I've not felt before. Like an undercurrent of warm water that flows beneath the wind-tossed storm that's wildly thrashing me around.
I'm not sure that I've ever felt this way.
If I was one of the disciples in that boat, of course I'd be looking at the storm, and wondering why isn't Jesus doing SOMETHING about it? And believe me – the Lord is hearing *plenty* along those lines from me!
And yet, I have a sense of peace because, after all, HE IS IN THE BOAT WITH ME!
And He seems pretty calm.
I told my son the other day about this – trying to describe how I feel.
I told Him I had scary peace.
"Um, Mom, do you think you could clarify that for me?" (My son is a very, very patient man…)
"Yeah, it's like I’m really anxious, but I'm not afraid. I'm still scared, but I feel strong and secure and safe. I don't feel calm, but I feel peace. Scary peace. Get it?"
I think he did – I hope you do, too.
Jesus truly does offer us a peace that is not like the world's peace. It isn't based on earthly feelings, but on eternal facts. It surpasses the mere absence of anxiety – it encompasses a bedrock faith that will carry us through the stormy seas until we reach the other side.
Yup, I'm still anxious – but I'm not afraid.
Jesus is in my boat – and like I said before…
…He seems pretty calm!
How does Jesus bring you peace in the middle of your storms?
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