OK, by the time you're reading this, the Super Bowl will be over.
Most wives would send up a big cheer over that little bit of news.
I LOVE football!
I usually watch more of it than "The Hub" – because I’m really *into* college football, too. And I'm gonna miss it until pre-season games start in August.
(I’ll let you in on a little secret – my favorite player? Aaron Rodgers of the Green Bay Packers. I think he's a great player, and he's cute. And please don't tell anyone about my crush on Tim Tebow, who happens to be younger than my youngest son…but hey, who's counting??)
Who was I rooting for in the Super Bowl?
Well, let's just say that the match-up between the N. Y. Giants and the New England Patriots garnered the same feelings from me as the upcoming presidential election. A whole lot of "I don't like anyone" with a little dollop of "I don't really care because it doesn't seem to make a whole lot of difference what I think" thrown in there for good measure. (Wow, where did that little tidbit of political cynicism come from??)
Back to football.
There is something known as a "Monday Morning Quarterback."
Defined like this:
American football: A person who criticizes or passes judgment with benefit of hindsight. Monday morning refers to the games played or broadcast on weekends, with criticisms leveled by a spectator the following week.
(Applied to general situations): A Monday morning quarterback is someone who is always criticizing and saying how he would have done something better or differently after the event has passed.
And I just LOVE this example – (wish I had thought of it!):
An example of a Monday morning quarterback is a person who talks about how he would never have bought those curtains, after they have already been installed and have been found to clash with the sofa.
So, I'm having a bit of Monday morning quarterbacking going on today.
Last week I added photos to my blog posts for the first time in my 1½-year history. First of all, I really wanted to share with all of you what "The Hub" looks like! Then, after that post published, I sorta liked the look of a photo at the beginning of my post…
So, I did it again.
I love that picture on Wednesday's post – "The Hub" took it on a visit to a small mountain village that we love to visit. And I thought that mountain photo fit my subject matter pretty well.
I thought – "I'm gonna start adding photos. I like looking at photos on other people's blogs. And I've got some really cool pictures."
But, here’s the deal.
The more I've been thinking about it – the more I’m *looking back* – I'm re-thinking the whole deal. My "Monday morning quarterback" isn't so sure that this change fits me.
It's kinda like seeing a really cool dress that looks great on someone else – and then trying it on for yourself. The dress is wonderful, and you're pretty darn cute – but somehow, the two just don't go together quite right.
That's how I'm feeling (on Monday morning, looking back) – so I'm going back to just my words.
(See note about photos at the end of this post - I've come to a compromise decision!)
There's gotta be a lesson in this, right?!
Do you ever do some "Monday morning quarterbacking" in your faith journey?
I sure do.
There have been many moments when I look back at my "wandering" years and think that they were much easier. Not so much stress – not so much questioning – not so much angst of spirit.
I just kinda did life – and didn't worry about it too much.
There were problems, yes – of course. Life is always bringing on those pesky problems.
But there didn't seem to be the more subtle *attack* feeling I have felt since following Jesus again.
I think that's the answer.
When you decide to follow Jesus, a spiritual aspect enters into your life. Now, I've been a believer all my life – but I did do some "prodigalling" – (if you're asking if that's a word…yes, it is now!)
But when I really turned my life over to Him – when I asked Him to be my LORD and not just my Savior – oh boy. Things heated up.
Evidently, following Jesus is not a popular decision with the enemy. And making that choice opens the door for spiritual attacks. Pick up your weapons, friend – there's going to be war.
Frankly, this is part of the reason that sometimes I'm afraid to trust Jesus. I don't like being on Satan's radar. I don't want him to come after me.
The ugly truth is this – there is some safety in complacency.
Following – being a disciple – is not an easy path.
I believe that's why Jesus was so very clear about making that choice intentionally. He advised us to count the cost. He warned us that cross-carrying is difficult business.
"If you want to be my disciple, you must hate everyone else by comparison…yes, even your own life. Otherwise, you cannot be my disciple. And if you do not carry your own cross and follow me, you cannot be my disciple. But don't begin until you count the cost…So you cannot become my disciple without giving up everything you own." (Luke 14: 26-28, 33)
"If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it."
I talk about this with my sons, with my friends.
Wasn't it easier before we turned our lives over to the Lord?
In some ways, yes. But, there's really no turning back, is there? Because once you love Jesus with all your heart, all your mind, all your soul, and all your strength – you can only go forward with Him.
It's the only choice.
So, this Monday morning quarterback (me) is looking back at Sunday's choice to become a disciple. Truthfully, I'm not regretting it at all.
A little scared about some of the requirements – not sure what's coming – afraid of the battles and worried about the attacks.
However, in the Super Bowl of Life, I know the Winner.
And He leads my team – He's the quarterback.
I'll let Him call the plays.
What do you think about when you look back at your faith journey? What has been the cost of discipleship for you?
(I've decided to add something new on my sidebar - MY PHOTO ALBUM - located right after My Word for 2012, and My Verses for 2012 - so I can feature some of those pictures I want to share with you. Also, if you scroll down a bit, you'll see a lovely picture of a hawk (not mine) - post link. And, a picture of a seaweed holdfast (yes, mine) - post link.
Phew, a lot of business...)
Linked today with:
Joan at SHARING HIS BEAUTY
Charlotte at SPIRITUAL SUNDAYS
Laura at BRAG ON GOD FRIDAY
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