Yeah, it happens.
I looked up the definition in the dictionary:
Writer's block is a condition, primarily associated with writing as a profession, in which an author loses the ability to produce new work. The condition varies widely in intensity. It can be trivial, a temporary difficulty in dealing with the task at hand. At the other extreme, some "blocked" writers have been unable to work for years on end, and some have even abandoned their careers.
Wow, that sounds great, huh?
In view of that rather fatal definition, I suppose what's going on with me isn't so much a "block" as it is a *snarl.*
Kinda like a hedge of tangled roots and branches.
A traffic jam.
A jambalaya jumble of juxtaposed junk.
(Phew! At least I haven't lost my alluring ability to alliterate…)
And it's not that I've lost my creative edge – (at least I hope not) – it's more that my brain is going in too many other directions right now.
And my little gray cells are pooped!
Ever feel like that?!
It's interesting, this writing business.
Even if the writing is "just" on a blog. I actually have great respect for us blog writers. It requires discipline and dedication. It requires inspiration and perspiration. Writing is writing…
Sometimes the words flow like the mighty Mississippi – and sometimes they trickle like a drippy faucet.
LIKE. THEY. ARE. NOW.
There is a certain temptation to start posting less often. But I know, at least for me, that that really shouldn't be an option – at least for right now. For me, I know that God has lessons for me in the discipline of my little schedule.
So, here I sit on Sunday evening, with little to write about.
My mind is on a million things.
My kids, my husband, my parents, my health, my finances, my living situation, my future…
My, my, my.
Here is Your word for me today – I am focusing on the wrong things.
Our pastor is doing a new series on worship.
He defines worship this way: "Responding to all God is…all He has done, is doing and will do…with all I am."
I love that.
For it re-adjusts my vision from earthly things to heavenly things. It takes my eyes off of me, and puts them onto God, where they belong in the first place.
Perhaps this is why I've been struggling with writing lately. I've been looking inside myself for inspiration. I've allowed myself to get caught up in the competing thoughts whirling around my head, vying for my attention.
In my search for words, have I forgotten The Word??
Yes, the cure for the confusion of words in my mind is the Sword of the Spirit.
So, let me share some thoughts on worship, based on Scripture:
It is active – praise is an active decision to pry our hands off the things of this world
"…fall down before him who sits on the throne and worship him who lives for ever and ever." (Revelation 4:10)
It is humble – in which we lay our crowns before the throne
"They lay their crowns before the throne and say: 'You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power…'" (Revelation 4:10, 11)
It is courageous – bravely and willfully turning our back on the world and its ways
"Do not conform to the pattern of this world…" (Romans 12:2)
It is sacrificial – giving up any claim to please oneself
"…offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God – this is your true and proper worship." (Romans 12:1)
It is complete – holding nothing back
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength." (Mark 12:30)
It is surrender – saying no to me and yes to Him
"'Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.'" (Mark 8:34)
These were the words that washed over me this morning in church. And I am greatly blessed by their Truth.
My writing isn't MY writing – it's an expression of my worship to God. And if it's not, if I lose focus and start worrying about MY words, then it will all add up to exactly NOTHING.
Our pastor finished this morning by asking this question:
What is Jesus asking you to surrender?
Well, I suppose I never really thought about surrendering my writing, my words. I've held on rather tight to this creative process, as if I had something to do with it.
Lord, forgive me – it has been Your gift from the beginning. And I am called to use it for YOUR glory.
I tell you what – I am learning one thing very clearly.
If I get all caught up in the "snarl," then I have lost focus.
"'You do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.'" (Mark 8:33)
So, maybe I need to take another look at this "writer's block" thing – maybe it's just a chance for me to listen more. Maybe it's a time to worry less about my words, and concentrate more on His Word. Maybe it's time to re-focus – to worship more than wrangle words. To concentrate more on prayer than prose.
Sure, I'll still be writing.
Because God is still talking to me.
But, I'm gonna let Him sort out the traffic jam in my head.
Fortunately, when we can't find words that come easily, we can always rely on the WORD!!
Do you ever suffer from "writer's block"? What do you do about it?
Linked today with:
Joan at SHARING HIS BEAUTY
Charlotte at SPIRITUAL SUNDAYS
BLOG = "Blessedly Leaning On God!"