I was talking to my mom the other day.
About how tired I am – how I’m feeling a little burned out.
How my clever writing ideas feel like they’re drying up.
I said something to her, without even thinking about it – (do you ever do that, say something and then realize, after the fact, that you’ve spoken a great truth?)
"Sometimes I feel like I’m so busy doing things for the Lord, that I can’t even hear Him."
She said, "Maybe you just need to take some time and sit at His feet for awhile."
All of a sudden, I stopped.
"Sharon, are you still there?"
"Yeah, Mom – you just said something really profound…"
And I’ve been thinking about it ever since.
When did I put on Martha shoes?
I’m the oldest child in my family – just like Martha. And sometimes I have a tendency to take charge, a habit that probably developed in childhood – an irritating habit!
And in my own sweet way, I like having control.
I, like Martha, can get fretfully obsessed with details.
Yes, I really desire to please the Lord, to serve Him, and to do the right thing. But sometimes, I get overly concerned with my own expectations. My perfectionism drives me – and my priorities get a little mixed up.
Now I know that the things I’m involved in – Bible Study, my small group, my ministry at Freedom Village, church and Sunday school – are all good things. And I’m convinced in my spirit that God wants me to be part of each and every one.
But, have I gotten so caught up in the details that I’m forgetting the main reasons I’m doing these things?
Oh, how Martha’s story speaks to me.
Am I so busy doing things for Jesus, that I’m not spending enough time just being with Him?
My Life Application Bible has a Personality Profile of Martha. I was interested to read about her weaknesses:
- Expected others to agree with her priorities – Oh boy, am I doing that? Do I also expect God to agree with my priorities, my timing?
- Was overly concerned with details – Goodness, do I fail to see the reason, the person I’m serving, the One I'm serving, by getting caught up in the details of doing service?
- Tended to feel sorry for herself when her efforts were not recognized – Yes, I admit it, I can be a whiner. I all too often need affirmation – and when I don’t get it…boo hoo.
- Limited Jesus’ power – Oh Lord, I do this. I get tired because I’m relying on my own strength. I’m doing it in my own power, my own way – flustering and fretting away.
Dear Lord, forgive me. I do not want You to be an afterthought. I want You to be my first concern.
I want to sit at your feet.
I am greatly comforted by how Jesus treated Martha. He was patient and kind. He addressed her as, "My dear Martha…"
This is what I hear Him saying to me.
"My dear Sharon, you are worried and upset over all these details! I love that you want to serve Me. And I know that you love Me. But have you lost sight of how much I just want to be with you? After all, there is only one thing worth being concerned about. And that is Me…just Me. Come, put aside these things for just a while. Sit at My feet. Listen to Me. Let’s just spend some quality time together…"
Jesus didn’t blame Martha for being concerned about serving – He just wanted her to set some priorities. Actually, to align her priorities with His.
There is a proper time to listen to Jesus and a proper time to work for Him.
I’m asking for His wisdom to sort this all out for me.
Because truthfully, these Martha shoes are a little too tight.
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