Another day, another dollar – so goes the old saying.
Another day, another headache…
Yes, the Enemy is having some fun right now.
On Thursday, my friends and I are giving a presentation to a local MOPS group – (Mothers Of Pre-Schoolers). It’s my first "professional" speaking engagement. We’re going to be speaking about the Lord.
Paint the targets on our backs.
I won’t go into the details of the fun fiery arrows that are flying their way. Suffice it to say – they’re flying fast and furious…(Hey, did you notice all the clever alliteration??)
My arrow today?
A migraine headache.
I’ve suffered from headaches most of my life. And yes, I’ve been checked out – and there’s nothing there. (Seriously, my skull is one empty, echoing cavern…)
So, no worries –
It’s just another distraction. Because today I needed to work on my talk. I needed to concentrate. I needed to have my wits about me. I needed to be funny and insightful and profound. I needed to be on my game.
Instead, I’ve been in bed most of the day.
My head’s hurting so bad I can hardly see straight. And the screen on my computer, even though it’s muted, feels like a beacon right now – and it’s piercing right through my eyes into that one little nerve that’s completely frazzled…
Lord, a little help here, please?
I really and truly want to speak about You – I want to speak in truth, and I want to do it well. I want to have the right words. I want to be funny and insightful and profound. I want the moms to like what I have to say. I want to "hit one out of the park!" I want...
"There were an awful lot of *I’s* in those last several sentences."
"Don’t you want to leave some room for My Holy Spirit to work?"
He’s right – so right – I know. And so I am humbled by His words.
If I frantically work, all on my own, trying to make the perfect speech – my speech – there’s just no room for Him. I don’t want that…
And maybe, just maybe, that’s why He let the Enemy have his way today.
To stop me, to settle me, to redirect my thinking – to make me still enough to listen.
"So don’t worry in advance…for I will give you the rights words and such wisdom…" (Luke 21:14-15)
"'…the Holy Spirit – he will teach you everything and will remind you of everything I have told you.'" (John 14:26)
"…don’t worry about how to respond or what to say. God will give you the right words at the right time. For it is not you who will be speaking – it will be the Spirit of your Father speaking through you." (Matthew 10:19-20)
God is so good – so very good.
My headache, that one fiery arrow, wounded me just enough to send me running to the only place I could get help…
…the arms of the Lord.
And He laid my sore little head down on a pillow, and He spoke to my heart.
I think my talk – ahem…HIS talk – is going to be great.
Because He is.
"And pray for me, too. Ask God to give me the right words…that I will keep on speaking boldly for him, as I should." (Ephesians 6:19-20)
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