I’m so frustrated right now.
Wanna hear why???
First of all, I’ve been out of town for about 5 days, on family business.
Notice I said business, and not family fun!
Meetings all day, decisions to make – mainlining coffee to try to stay awake.
I finally arrived home Sunday night, absolutely exhausted – thanks to jet lag, and a wonderfully well-timed "spring forward" time change.
Today (I’m writing this post on Monday, by the way) has not been a red-letter day. By the way, what exactly IS a red-letter day, anyway? I’d sure like to have one…
First thing this morning I had to take my car into the shop. Yes, Eddie the Explorer is getting a little creaky – he’s 12 years old right now. But I thought he’d be OK for a while when I got a brand-new fuel pump for him in January ($$$).
No, now his ball joints and arms have to be replaced – (I don’t know a thing about cars, but this just sounds sad. Like an old man going in for hip replacement…)
And, of course, there’s also the mysterious "droning" noise that started about three weeks ago.
Eddie’s "handwriting on the wall" might be saying – Help me, I’ve fallen and I can’t get up.
We can’t swing a new car right now – it’s bad enough that replacing Eddie’s joints are going to be expensive – and we still don’t know what’s causing the drone ($$$$$).
OK, ready for the next thing?
I forgot to schedule my blog post for this morning. So when I got up, luckily I remembered, and published it – 4 ½ hours late. I like to publish it early in consideration of my buddies in the east – but today, I had another one of those "senior moments" that I’m so fond of. Maybe I should blog about it – oh wait, I did…
Then I had to go to the DMV to renew my driver’s license. Seems at my age (29), they require you to come in for a vision test. "What chart? There’s an eye chart up there? Oh, that fuzzy white thing?" "The Hub" and I had an appointment to avoid the loooonnng lines – even arrived early. Had to wait because all their computers were down!
I took the time to practice the eye chart…
I passed. I get to be a road hazard for another 5 years!
Finally, I got home and started to catch up on all that I’ve missed in Blog Land since I’ve been gone. Don’t want any of you guys to think that I’ve been ignoring you…
And then, right in the middle of trying to leave a pithy, well-thought-out, insightful, profound comment on someone’s blog – poof! My computer refused to load pages. GRRR!! Doesn’t anyone understand?!?!? I’ve got work to do!
Called the computer tech line – it’s not the computer. Called the cable company – lovely automated voice told me, "We’re sorry. We’re experiencing a service outage in your area. We are dispatching technicians to the area to work on the problem. However, we do not know when service will be restored. Is there anything else we can help you with?"
Yes, but I don’t think what I want to say should be recorded!
So, now I’m writing a post (a rant, a tantrum, a diatribe) about the whole sordid mess.
But, I’ve got to turn this into something about God.
Lord, could you help me out here?
So I turn to my Bible and open it – a Monday "Bible Pick ‘Ems" – to see what He has to say.
"And everyone who has given up…for my sake, will receive a hundred times as much in return and will inherit eternal life." (Matthew 19:29)
Thank you, Lord, for giving me a little (a lot) vision correction. Thank you for providing some much-needed heavenly perspective.
His words to me:
"Sharon, why do you get so upset about things that don’t really matter in the end? Why do you try so hard to make things work, and then get so frustrated when they don’t? Don’t you believe that I know about your car and your finances? Yes, you passed your vision test at the DMV, but you failed the faith vision test miserably today. And I’m asking you again, why are you so consumed with blogging? Are you really in Blog Land for Me, for My purposes?"
So, I’m confessing to you all – my red-letter day was a big, fat, red "F." And I’m really embarrassed by it. And convicted…
Lord, forgive me for being superficial and shallow – for forgetting about the eternal things, the important things – the things that I’m really working for. Teach me to give up these petty annoyances and irritating frustrations in life. Help me to focus on the hundred-fold reward!
And never, ever let me forget – Your greatest gift – eternal life…
How are you doing on your vision test? Are you focusing on the eternals?
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