I just speak to me.
OK, before any of you get yourselves *all worked up* and think that I've turned into some selfish old woman – hear me out.
Two weeks ago I was talking with my friend at the lake – (she would be the one who did NOT get sunburned – just sayin'). We were talking about writing, and how it all comes about. I was explaining how my blog posts unfold – how sometimes I won't have an idea until the night before – and how other times the ideas seem to rush out before I can write them down, and I'll do 4 or 5 in one sitting.
And then I said without thinking…
"I just speak to me."
We laughed – because it sorta came out sounding Italian – and because it sounded unbelievably self-centered.
But of course, I didn't mean it that way – (Selfish, no. Italian, maybe…)
It's been almost a year since I started this blog – and as I take a good look back, I've realized something. It really has been an online journal in a way. A way to capture what I'm feeling, what I'm dealing with, what I'm celebrating, what I'm struggling with –
Writing for me is an interesting circle. I so often sit down and start writing what God is saying to me, or what I want Him to say to me. And then, in the writing, He begins to unfold the words that He wants me to hear.
I'm like a sluice box from the Gold Rush era. The Living Water rushes through me – and lo and behold, afterwards there are some gold nuggets that God leaves behind!
I think the most honest writing is writing that starts in the heart.
And that's what I mean when I say – I just speak to me.
My heart – it's the only place where God and I meet for intimate dialogue. Sometimes I speak, and He does all the listening. Sometimes I remain quiet, and so does He. But sometimes, He does all the talking – and that is precious conversation indeed.
Now, of course, God is a generous Father. And when I write, His words also go out to others. And He gives me the privilege of being blessed by knowing that others have been blessed by His work in and through me.
I hope this all makes sense.
I hope you all know how very much I am blessed by the gold nuggets God leaves in your hearts – how very blessed I am by the words that He speaks through you – how very blessed I am when I read and receive them.
The Body of Christ – actually, it's all like a big circle, isn't it?
His blessings to us, through us, on to others – and back to Him in grateful praise.
May the circle remain unbroken…
Oh Lord, I thank you that when "I just speak to me" – it's really You speaking to me. I thank you for the joy of hearing Your Voice, and for the privilege of being able to share with others what You say. Thank you, Lord, for the many people who bless me with the words You speak to them. It's a wonder – the way that You work in the Body of Christ. Lord, continue to talk to our hearts – and give us the desire and the patience and the humility to listen to the still, small voice…"
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