Tuesday, June 7, 2011

I JUST SPEAK TO ME

I just speak to me.

OK, before any of you get yourselves *all worked up* and think that I've turned into some selfish old woman – hear me out.

Two weeks ago I was talking with my friend at the lake – (she would be the one who did NOT get sunburned – just sayin'). We were talking about writing, and how it all comes about. I was explaining how my blog posts unfold – how sometimes I won't have an idea until the night before – and how other times the ideas seem to rush out before I can write them down, and I'll do 4 or 5 in one sitting.

And then I said without thinking…

"I just speak to me."

We laughed – because it sorta came out sounding Italian – and because it sounded unbelievably self-centered.

But of course, I didn't mean it that way – (Selfish, no. Italian, maybe…)

It's been almost a year since I started this blog – and as I take a good look back, I've realized something. It really has been an online journal in a way. A way to capture what I'm feeling, what I'm dealing with, what I'm celebrating, what I'm struggling with –

Writing for me is an interesting circle. I so often sit down and start writing what God is saying to me, or what I want Him to say to me. And then, in the writing, He begins to unfold the words that He wants me to hear.

I'm like a sluice box from the Gold Rush era. The Living Water rushes through me – and lo and behold, afterwards there are some gold nuggets that God leaves behind!

I think the most honest writing is writing that starts in the heart.

And that's what I mean when I say – I just speak to me.

My heart – it's the only place where God and I meet for intimate dialogue. Sometimes I speak, and He does all the listening. Sometimes I remain quiet, and so does He. But sometimes, He does all the talking – and that is precious conversation indeed.

Now, of course, God is a generous Father. And when I write, His words also go out to others. And He gives me the privilege of being blessed by knowing that others have been blessed by His work in and through me.

I hope this all makes sense.

I hope you all know how very much I am blessed by the gold nuggets God leaves in your hearts – how very blessed I am by the words that He speaks through you – how very blessed I am when I read and receive them.

The Body of Christ – actually, it's all like a big circle, isn't it?

His blessings to us, through us, on to others – and back to Him in grateful praise.

May the circle remain unbroken…


Oh Lord, I thank you that when "I just speak to me" – it's really You speaking to me. I thank you for the joy of hearing Your Voice, and for the privilege of being able to share with others what You say. Thank you, Lord, for the many people who bless me with the words You speak to them. It's a wonder – the way that You work in the Body of Christ. Lord, continue to talk to our hearts – and give us the desire and the patience and the humility to listen to the still, small voice…"


BLOG = "Blessedly Leaning On God!"

11 comments:

  1. Amen to your prayer Sharon.

    Thank you for this blog, which I so relate to. Some, if not most of your words, could be me speaking.

    Hugs - Nita.

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  2. Oh, Sharon...this post definitely makes perfect sense...

    "And then, in the writing, He begins to unfold the words that He wants me to hear. "...yes, He does...He does...

    So thankful to a part of that circle of the family of God...so much better than trying to walk a straight line by yourself...

    Your words truly bless...

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  3. Oh my goodness - I do the same thing - I just go with the flow and see what he says to me.

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  4. AMEN and blessings Sharon... Circle us up Lord and keep on encircling us with your Words in power and might as You flow through Sharon and each of us to make sense out of our nonsense, to speak to us by speaking through us, to allow our mess to become Your message first to ourselves and then to others to bring Glory to You.

    You see God, we choose to be willing vessels of You alive in us and keeping this CIRCLE united by You, Your Words and Your will as we encourage, and hopefully minister to one another as iron sharpens iron and the wheel just keeps on turning one spoke at a time, spoken by You to and through us... quite impressive however we spin this. Truly a blessing! You bless me and that's because God blesses each spoke in the circle. Just like YE OLD MILL, the Water running, keeps it flowing... the Living Water of Everlasting Love, through Him and His Word, one turn turns another... that's the visual that came as I read and wrote this...

    Thanks again, sister and sisters in Christ!
    Vaya con Dios! Que Dios te bendiga!
    Peggy

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  5. Sharon- I loved how you shared this experience! That was such a wonderful day with you, and I'm SO GLAD you turned that funny story into such another beautiful devotional/post/thought provoker.
    Yes, HE speaks TO YOU, THROUGH you and I am always so blessed by what you both say to me!!!
    Love you!!
    Janet

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  6. It makes perfect sense to me,and I love the way you expressed it. The part about the sluice box is perfect. I have that experience with my teaching more than my writing. As I'm studying away, I essentially teach to myself. If you were to walk in the room while I'm preparing, you would think I was a little nutty because of the way I react to what I've learned.

    You think I'm nutty anyway so I guess that wouldn't be news to you.

    Oh how I wish that God would use my voice in writing the way that he uses yours. I never leave without having you speak TO ME.

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  7. BTW, not having to jump through the verification hoop makes it easier for Della to get said what she wants to say. Thanks.

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  8. Everyone writes such beautiful comments, I am not a writer AT ALL, but your prayer said it all to me and I loved ending my long day praying that prayer with you..."Lord, continue to talk to our hearts"...

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  9. I know what you are saying here, Sharon. I also know that a lot of times I'll have a thought in my head about what to write and I can't get it to come together. And then something will not really be in my mind, but I'll sit down and the words will just flow, what God wants me to say, often words of encouragement that people need to hear that I have absolutely no idea they need to it that, but God does. It is often too when I write from my heart with God's words, those are the most well received posts I write. However, you write, I am glad you write and I'm glad I read what you write!

    betty

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  10. Hi Sharon -

    I enjoyed this piece. Thank you

    Especially I love this, "But sometimes, He does all the talking – and that is precious conversation indeed."

    And I loved your prayer. It ministered indeed.

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  11. Dear friends,

    Thank you for leaving your comments - I'm a bit behind in responding to them this week - it's been unbelievably busy.

    However, I have appreciated all your thoughts. As always, they bless me and bring me so much encouragement. As I said in this post, this circle that is the Body of Christ - as it shares His words and His Word with each other - is an awesome thing. God's love in action is quite breathtaking.
    I don't know what I'd do without the friendship, and the tremendous input, you all provide. You make my faith journey all that much better...

    Love to all, and GOD BLESS!

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"So [I] have been greatly encouraged in the midst of [my] troubles and suffering, dear brothers and sisters, because you have remained strong in your faith. It gives [me] new life to know that you are standing firm in the Lord. How [I] thank God for you!" (1 Thessalonians 3:7-9)

Thanks for your comments - it is such a joy to be sharing my journey with friends like YOU!

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