Today I feel sad.
No particular reason…I just do.
Sometimes *sad* happens to me like June Gloom…a curiously Southern California phenomenon. Basically, a cold, gray marine layer blankets the sky until late afternoon. Sometimes, the sun never quite makes it out at all. This goes on for days, sometimes weeks…
So, there's no explanation for this cold, dreary weather front in my soul. It's just there – blanketing everything.
I hesitated writing this post. I like being upbeat, encouraging, positive – and even downright inspiring once in a while.
But, right now, I don't have it in me.
I think this post should have been titled, "I Got Nothing – Part Two."
So, Lord – here I am in front of a computer screen – not "feeling it" – what do you want me to say?
"Tell them what happened last night."
OK, here's what happened.
When I get these "moods" I don't usually feel like doing much of anything. I am "She Who Is Unable To Be Pleased." I don't want to write and I don't want to read. TV is stupid and boring. I don't want to go outside, and I don't feel like sitting around. I'm not hungry, and I could eat a horse – a chocolate one, just sayin'…
Truthfully, I also don't feel like writing or visiting any blogs – how crummy is that?? But, I did see on my blog list last night that a close friend had a new post. She doesn't post that often, so I like to read and leave a comment for her whenever she does.
So, I hopped on over...
She wrote about *over-thinking* things – it was really good – even though I never do that. HA! Who am I kidding?!
In leaving her a comment, a verse came to my mind, and so I included that. (Tell you more about that in a moment…)
After posting the comment, I closed my laptop, and moped.
Now I know that this is not a "God-honoring" place to be. And I don't like the concerted determination that tends to creep into my heart – "I'm going to hold on to this mood no matter what."
So, desperate to cling on to something other than "grayness" – I decided to do a "Bible Pick ‘Ems." For those of you who don't know, it's when I randomly open up my Bible and read the two pages I've turned to – in trust that God will have something to say to me – (and also hoping that I don't end up in Leviticus).
Do you know that I turned to the VERY SAME verses that I had just used in my friend's blog comment??
Yes, God had a GOOD Word for me – (the Scripture I will share with you tomorrow) – and His comfort came to me in two ways.
One, the verses themselves were inspiring and precious. They reached my heart as if God had said them out loud.
And second, I realized that God was behind this *coincidence* – it's as if His hand reached out and touched me.
It happened to many people we consider our *pillars of faith* – Moses and David, Job and Elijah – even Jesus Himself got discouraged and sad.
But, even in the cold, gray, dreary depths of saddened hearts – God is the sun that's still shining…
And His Son shines through the darkness.
Have you ever had "sad" just happen to you out of the blue?
(No pun intended!)
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