Why is it that some sins just refuse to die?!
You know what I’m talking about…the sins you think you’ve dealt with, only to find them back again.
Like zombies scratching at the windows, clawing to get into your heart.
The apostle Paul knew what it was like to deal with “zombie sins”:
“I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway…I have learned this principle of life – that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind.” (Romans 7:18-19, 22-23)
Can you relate?!
For me, the biggest "zombie sin" I deal with is fear. It seems that I am afraid a lot. I’ve been this way since I was a child. Yes, I have “a genetic predisposition to anxiety” – blah, blah, blah.
But, why can’t I once and for all just TRUST God?
I know people who are going through real struggles, real difficulties – financial hardships, addiction issues, marriage problems, etc. They seem to have more faith than I can muster most days.
What is it about fear?
What am I afraid of, you might ask? (It’s OK, you can ask…)
A lot…”the boys” – and all their life issues – work, marriage, money, their faith…
“The Hub” – issues about HIS faith…
My elderly parents – what’s coming in the future as I deal with their aging?
A thousand other "what if" things -
The random call at midnight, the scary diagnosis, the unforeseen accident…
Ah…there it is! The underlying fear – the BIG one that simmers underneath all the others.
I’m afraid of death.
OK, that was really tough to admit. Because as a believer, I KNOW where I’m going when I die. I BELIEVE every promise of God’s. But I’m still scared.
If I’m really honest with myself…and with you…even underneath that fear of death is another – the fear of not being in control. For death is really the final, ultimate thing over which WE HAVE NO CONTROL.
I’m a nice lady…(just ask me, I’ll tell you) – I don’t see myself as a control freak. But if I fear the “uncontrollable” – then what does that say about my willingness to trust God COMPLETELY??
I have nailed this “zombie sin” to the cross I don’t know how many times…just for it to come back and live another day.
But I guess that’s what it means to “take up your cross DAILY.”
So, for today, just for today, I’m going to fight this “zombie sin” with these weapons:
“For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the devil, who had the power of death. Only in this way could he set free all who have lived their lives as slaves to the fear of dying.”
“The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you. And just as God raised Christ Jesus from the dead, he will give life to your mortal bodies by this same Spirit living within you.” (Romans 8:11)
“Death is swallowed up in victory. O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?...thank God! He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ.” (1 Corinthians 15:54-55, 57)
Do you have a “zombie sin” – does it have something to do with control???
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